-Sunday, January 25, 2009
Lunar New Year
There comes a time where we set new goals, re-evaluate ourselves, do a little reflection. For me it had to come on the eve of this festive season. Truthfully, festive seasons are prolly something to remember where you come from, and meet up with long lost relatives.
Anyway I feel I've lots of work to do in character building myself. I probably should be less dominant, more understanding. I'm always weak at this - expecting things to come around. The true meaning of unconditional would be giving without any questions. I've tried and it works sometimes, but other times human nature eats into me.
Probably I'd just want a lil more appreciation and attention.
Happy Lunar New Year.
Yeechien Wrote;
11:00 PM
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-Friday, January 23, 2009
And again.
It was around a week ago I guess. Yes, we had issues over a problem, a complicated one involving our differing viewpoints on a single aspect. Other than that everything's good and running well. It's probably the inner me that craves for a little more attention through little things. I really appreciate what's been done for me already, then again I might be too demanding. You've been really great and I know you will be as always.
It doesn't mean that you're not good enough, just that I feel both of us have more to work on for the long run. We've set the baseline and said that it's worth it, so I'll try. I know I've been saying this over and over again and only time will tell, and I really want it to and it will turn out positive. I really believe that faith is the solution, if not the foundation for any other approach. Another thing to note is for us to find common ground and come to a point of agreement. This is the period where we learn more about each other, our personalities, our values we hold dear.
I believe that this is just a trough and we're climbing up and up, and further. We always say to keep the faith, it works though, but we need to find a new faith, and plenty of it. It's possible. We're in another kind of system now where I can only get to see you on weekends and though I'm adjusting to it, I still do think about us, too. A smile never fails to form on my face whenever I take a look at pictures before bed. You do too, right?
It's probably been because I didn't play my part well. All the time I said was to follow your way, and this time I really, really probably should without any complains and arguments(and make it the way to go in the future). I should be more embracing instead of questioning. Though you know it makes me a little uneasy unnaturally for you to have so many male friends(or that I'm probably sensitive), I'll give my all to working on it. Also, I know its awkward for me to be around since most of your friends don't really know me and can click with me like sam sam does.
I've lots more to tell but you already know where I'm coming from. I just want to let you know that I'm trying and I've been thinking it for nights till today ever since it happened. You know the last year has been great, and let's make this year better, alright? <3
For you only,
Yeechien
Yeechien Wrote;
11:55 PM
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-Saturday, January 03, 2009
Transition Period Three
Academic break. Long one. However it renders me aimless for a little while till my results arrive. Army, oh army. When I book in, I've stuff to do. When I'm out and alone I feel rather lost sometimes so I just go to bed or walk around aimlessly. Thank God I've family and a Special Someone to save me from that [[:
2008 was great but 2009 will be a better year in which I will decide my course for the later part of my life. Forget New Year Resolutions and new clothes for chinese new year. I guess these stuff appears trivial to me since I'm more "big picture" when it comes to things that aren't so important but otherwise I'm okay. New clothes will become old, this year will pass. And so on. Make the change whenever.
Yeechien Wrote;
2:45 AM
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