yeechien
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Once Again.

Before anything else,

I sincerely apologise to anyone and everyone if the posts in the previous entries have caused hurt to anyone else. It wasnt the motive, that was the important part. I know who I am directing to. And this apology is directed to those who have been hurt in a way or another. I am taking full responsibility for my actions.

Yeechien

Once again I emphasise my APOLOGY. I know some things are hurting. And I clapped because I gave honour, not because of sarcasm. My blog may differ from what I put in action. My class chairman and Vice chairman taught me and important lesson. How much you dont like something, dont be a wet blanket.

I admit I was very much against the dance, after seeing so many people not involving, and me myself not involving as I don't see any point in doing that dance. But Faheem and Yifeng constantly asked me to take part, but I refused. Sorry guys. I admit I hurt people. I said stuff w/o considering the effort they put, right? But in the first place if it wasn't last minute all these unwanted stuff wouldn't appear.

Judging by the tags on my board, I know that really people are there by my side. It's weird to go around people stuff if you yourself aren't guilty. Always be sure, and don't be a busybody to ask everyone this and that and redundant stuff. With all this texts I constantly remind myself what life is like. I get all this shit too.

Being accused of things that I never done. Just to clarify, I go to every, note. E-V-E-R-Y unfilled table to chase them to fill it up. I do my job with much vigour, and I am willing so sacrifice my food time, which is important to me, but this prom has a higher calling than my food time. Don't shoot the arrow when you're not looking at the target. Yeah I know this has got to do with some interpersonal stuff. For everyone's info, I gave a choice because I thought that it was everyone's prom night and I wanted everyone to remember it. I'd rather put myself in a spot than see people unhappy. But what I get? More problems. The fact that I'm whining now, shows how important this project is to me.

Its not that I dont wanna give you a job to do. Please understand that when I gave you jobs, you once told me you had not enough time to do this and that. Seeing you in a exhausted state with your eyebags filled to the brim, as a result of sleeplessness, I couldn't help but not to give you anymore. I know you have commitments to juggle. So do I. I don't like to spend my every day and night wasting my breath explaining that this prom night is not affecting my studies to my parents. And having to tolerate their nagging out of concern every now and then. But for everyone's sake and mine, I am learning to weigh both. I don't like to see unhappy faces while working. I know working it out alone isn't easy. When you said that I used that as an excuse, it wasnt. And it hurt okay. It wasn't an excuse. The bottom line is that I care, for each and everyone of my comm members. I look out for you all, all the time. When teachers speak to me, I worry for you all. The past months have not been easy for me, luckily for me my prelims were still okay, I scraped thru with L1R5 - 25.

So whatever people label me, I'll just make do. For now I'd really like to settle everything and put it behind. Whether or not there are hard feelings. Now its time for the future and the Os.

Its not that I want to pursue anything or what lah. I felt that injustice has been done to me all the while, and I need to let out. I can tell you the truth, or you can ask others. I am usually very paitent. Now my limit is almost there, I know, I am trying to raise it. For my patience and tolerance, I will. Please tell me right in the face if you are downright unhappy. I don't like to hear from others, and it inconvenient for others to pass me the message too. I am frank and to the point.

For anyone else's information. The prom is going on and it will be a much anticipated event as most of the details are really finalised. Please support. Everything I said has a drop of conscience in it. On the right you can see what I've said might be true with my classmates coming to give me words of encouragement and such. Thanks to WEIQING especially. My friend of 9plus years. Thanks beanpole. And the others, yeah.

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Another Promise Broken

The title speaks for itself.

Yes. I am rather disappointed.

Very in fact.

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Responsibility

Alright, I am aware that what I have posted in the previous two entries has done grevious harm to people. I apologise for that. But let me state my stand. I am in no remorse for what I said, as today yet again people have told me some stuff. The dance was not too bad afterall, wasn't it.

Right away people might think I'm a hyporcrite, but yeah. This is my blog and I have every right to say what I want. Affecting morale is another thing. If you guys saw it and it affected your morale, why bother to ask the rest to. This is called 'Viewer Discretion'. I apologise if I hurt anyone with my words, but thats who I am, I am frank and outspoken.

So much for a Secondary School Graduation, people looking at me in different light and all the shit that comes along, I bet I brought it upon myself, and I dont regret a single bit. I wasn't aware what I said made such a huge impact. To anyone else, really consider when you all speak about others, how do they feel? Now we know. My prophecy was fufilled. One can speak about another, from top to toe. But when I speak of one, they start to whine.

Once again I emphasise, viewer discretion is very important here. You may choose to leave if the contents are disturbing.
Well done my classmates, for the dance.
I was just stating my feelings, and feedback from others.

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Graduation

Okay. Finally. After 4 long years of waiting.

The past 4 years have been really fruitful. And what a note to end on my graduation day.

People are so goddamn sensitive to things they see, esp in blogs, and other media. They'll react instantly and start to bitch about this and that, usually theyre not guilty. Their epitome of good and bad, is the inverse of yours and mine.

I can't help to speak about the dance issue. People telling me how unwilling they are to take part in a sloppy last minute production and I can't tell them to leave it, who wants to be a wet blanket. Right? Screwed up planning. I'd say it isn't a class effort, but a forceful production. And force doesnt not bring about happiness. What for doing something that you wont put your heart in, especially when there's so little time for everything. It's not like we wanna take centerstage, but in our hearts we know who are guilty.

I always believe when we do something, 2 factors are important, or rather, 3. Commitment, Planning and Originality. No planning will lead to zero commitment from the participating individuals, and no orginality will fail to muse the audience. So what's the point of flaunting when you have nothing. No point. Thus a lesson is learnt, never to have last minute inspiration and forcing someone else to play along with your plans. Always plan beforehand so as to achieve better results, and not making yourself look like a fool.

Again,
Kudos to my classmates dancing today.
Do it good with all your heart, though I know how you all feel. Last minute changes and such, I hear your comments. Planning only after looking at others dances, and now our class is going on stage. Good luck my friends

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Lesson #102: Don't dance if you can't

For goodness sake last minute work will always come out like shit. You may scrape through but the point of you doing something must be to do it well.

For goodness sake a chicken rice vendor will never go sell duck rice unless he is forced, so never try to do something you cant at such short notice. Kudos to everyone in the dance man, I really give it up to you all for being able to dance with just a mere 2 days of practice.

As I know some of the moves aren't really original, after receiving complaints from others that they're copied. Alright copied. Last minute was already a bummer, now a copy. Double whammy. For fuck's sake please lah, don't even try man. This is not a stage for one to flaunt your one's ability. If that was what I wanted, I'd get the spotlights on me, that'll be enough.

Semangat,(a Malay word)

What a forceful dance. Unhappy faces, unwilling dancers. All forced. Pre-arrranged last minute and given no choice, I feel sorry for them to. A better production with a better crew should have been in place. So much for a class effort. I'd rather say its like a handful wanna dance, then they rope in the whole class. In the end only 2/3 of the class dances and the other 1/3 are basically doing shit.

Chew on this if you understand.

Politics and nonsense. Bullshitting and bitching. Right in front of me, but fools do that. A man of virtue keeps quiet even when being scolded, a fool reacts instantly. Damnit man. What a way to end my sec sch life, but better late then never. Since whats done been done then just fuck it. Just like only 2 more weeks till school ends and hopefully I wont be getting any shit from anyone.

Damn those who pretend they can do something but in fact they cant.

I know you are in a tight situation now, I'll just move aside and not come back that soon.

Okay whatever.

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Lesson #101: Don't Think Highly of Yourself.

As the heading says so.

Okay before I go on I must say that my posts are not directed at any individual, I am not guilty, but people have asked me if I were talking about them.

Never talk big. Don't claim that you can bake a cake unless you have done so, but most likely if you brag about it the most is that you can bake a rock. Something like that. Why don't people get the meaning of punctuality and planning? They don't give a damn, usually. Until another group gives a damn then they do; its too late.

It's good to plan beforehand so to be credible. Fools.

I had a really dumb day and dont ask me why. Thanks and bye.

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Hypocrisy.

Alright I got some inspiration from Eugene's essay. What a time to blog about hypocrisy than now. Just another practice for my O level English Paper 1.

(This wont score a distinction, for sure. Writing at my own pace, and style)
Hypocrisy. A pretence, to believe something that one do not really believe or that is the opposite of what one does or says at another time. Or rather, hypocrites are people who do not practise what they preach. All the time. Yeah, yeah, the world is full of them, unfortunately, you and me have been one before. The countless times we've been called a hypocrite by another, so much for the pot calling the kettle black.

Why practice hypocrisy? Attracting attention, fame, and whatever 'goodness' it brings. The accusations they make are hypocritical, they themselves are guilty of the accusations they made. Shoot me if I'm wrong. Yes I mean shoot me. What comes out of hypocrites' mouths are words said for the fun of it, usually. They aren't really with substance, and they just tend to sit there and speak about what great things they can do. A person who speaks and waits for the roast duck to fall into his mouth must wait a very long, long time. Sometimes people should really try something themselves before basing their comments. Like for example, my class was being dumb when they heard they had to shake the principal's hand. All the jeering and such, why not put it this way. You think the principal wants to shake your hands? I bet not. Be thankful that he is willing to shake 418 hands. Rather than making a big fuss out of nothing.

Its time for people to behave like what they should. And stop being idiots and behaving like kids. The world is not a 3-year-old kid you can easily trick with a candy stick. Instead of sitting down, whining and complaining the whole day, its time to do pick up something meaningful and do it wholeheartedly. Shut up, we know what you've done. No need to amplify your deeds to the whole world and try to make people go wow. WOW. Okay. I digressed. Shit okay forget it.

Hypocrites its time to stop bitching about people, and try to be more paitent when people bitch about you. Stop trying to impose your 'authority', which is kinda redundant when you dont have any. Yeah, and don't cry to your mama when someone calls you by a name when you can call others a thousand names.

We'd always like to try to wipe them off the face of the earth, what for be benevolent? Try to rid them but it grows, its a never ending cycle. [:

Cheers for world peace,
and some peace for me,
as like anyone else would like to have.

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Image? Forget it.

Okay today isn't really a good day to blog. Is it. Not nice to cough blood outta your throat and type at the same time. :/

Already in this state people are trying to spoil my beautiful afternoon. Damnit. Okay I'm going to sleep for a little moment and get to some business ASAP.

Seeya folks.

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11 Days w/o Blogging.

Okay, needless to say my blog traffic is always low, due to the way I write stuff. I write not for the general public, so not everyone can accept.

So much going on in life. Many commitments to juggle, but once I find my balance, I will succeed. Like grass, I'm always trampled upon. Always taken for granted, always people not knowing what they do, really hurts sometimes.

It's not easy to love another, when you have seen his/her negative sides. It is when you pretend that it is not there. However, for 2 people to be really good friends, it is necessary for both to love each other, and accepting their respective flaws.

A chinese proverb once said, "When you are poor, your nearest neighbours will not even visit you. But when you are weatlhy, expect visitors from far." I guess this is quite true, not to brag. People offload you when you have a special authority, and they try to suck up to your balls and yeah. It's not run this way. I believe in fairness, and equality.

Being arrogant isn't nice. Do not think too high of yourself, for you have not seen the world. Humility, is one of the values you should hold, and not arrogance. Arrogance brings you nowhere, but humility brings you the best of life.

For now,

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Application for Leave

Hello people I won't be around from today onwards as I'm going to be barred from the computer. My dad says he's going to use a hammer to smash everything up so I can't use cause I always can figure out the PW he set. Yup. Will come back around December, got so much to do. [:

Cheerios!

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Stronger.

I think I'll walk out of these doors stronger,
with an added advantage above all.
Sometimes I'm weak, sometimes I'm strong,
I'll always try not to go wrong.

Hopefully.

A phase of life where I really find myself, as in me. The real me, who belongs to reality, instead of the dreamland where I used to reside in. It's time to come back down. The floor is cold, but I must get used to it. The conditions are harsh, but I must get used to it. I will try to make this place, a better place for me, a place where only happy things exist.

Hopefully.

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Damn

I just want to say that my bowels are almost dry and my hair is starting to fall. Im going to be reduced to bones if this continues.

Maybe I should really show my parents that I am studying. [:

And get this prom done asap. Damnit. Not the prom, but myself.

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Busy, busy, busy..

Been very busy lately. As I browse through my MSN contacts, I really wonder where have people gone to. Hardly being able to find people to relate to, sleeping at 3-4am everyday to do work, studies, and the Prom Night. I guess it isn't easy organising an event for 250, such a big event. People tell me I'm just a kid. Not true. I'm a kid who can answer, and deliver. I'm not just any kid, I'm a 16-year-old kid that can organise a Prom Night for my peers. Right? Lol. Just to answer my critics.

Time passes so quickly.

Looking back, it was only like January/February. Now its like September and tons of events have unfolded. Disappointing events, and happy events. It's just life. With the ups, and the downs. It doesn't go down well, but it'll have to eventually. Whether the medicine is bitter or sweet(but in most cases its bitter), we'd still have to swallow it, don't we. It'll do good to us. Will it? The events that I got in and out of, moulded me and changed me to who I am today. I feel that I'm going through a tremendous change inside. Doesn't feel good sometimes. You tend to choose to not socialise with others. Slowly you see things in people, the dark and the bright sides. Then you be picky, you choose your friends. Which may be essential. Hanging out with people you call 'friends', is an action we should really contemplate on. Who are our real friends, who arent. During adversity, you know your true friends, but in prosperity, your 'friends' know you. Amazing, the human nature, the instincts, the greed from within.

Equality. There is no equality in this world. Hardly. If humans were all equal then we'd rather be robots, every part the same as another. Then we'll be all reflections of one another, how boring. Some humans are trying to be the same as another, but they always fail, no single individual can be the same as another, we possess our own individual, unique traits. I'd look stupid if I were to cross dress, won't I, of course, that is if a tranny is my idol. =X At this age, people are usually easily influenced. Negative, more. They don't know whats good for them. The good that they know, is a false image, is it? I'm not defining black and white, true or false.

Elitism? Nah. In my life I see so many people trying to go after the brands. I don't know the names, but I know the brands are like so high above, the finer brands. Exclusive to those who have a deeper pocket which contains more. And a deeper mind. Rather than a shallow pocket and a mind. Many yearn to be on the finer side of life. When they can't they pretend. Remember when we were young, when we couldn't do something we'd pretend. Its just us. Like for me, I didn't get to take an aeroplane when I was young, until 3. Before that I always imagined. So many people trying to pretend, which makes people say, "Life's a Play". These are the usual suspects. Like amplifiers, news is spread fast when you tell them a little thing and they'll make it like the biggest news, its like as if the globe would rotate the other way round, damnit.

Accusations made by my family, saying that I'm not studying. Damnit, I am but you all have to see. Okay I'm sorry Dad and Mom. I'll show more effort in studying man. I am studying anyways, just that I do the Prom work at night more often.

Right, where is everyone when I needed them. Hmm. Next time I should really think before I make a decision or an action.

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The Culture Here

Alright. People just can't leave you alone, can they? Anyway, even though you don't care about them, what they do, will affect you in some sense, and this is my blog. [: Yup, for ...

Majority of the people down here have a very weird mentality. They don't leave their names when they make comments, resulting in tagboard wars. A war going on within tagboards. That small litte space on your site, even war is going on in there! A few of my friends were like affected, but hopefully they'll be fine. [: It's just us. When an accident happens on one side of the road, that side's traffic would be slowed. However on the other side the traffic is also slow, why? Cause they slow down to see what happens, but never offers to help. -.- Okay lame. Just an example to show how dumb people can get.

Its really annoying when people want to make stupid comments that aren't true, if your consience is clear. Usually they're all out to make you fall and such. Don't. Its a trap people. Stay clear, and be ignorant, in this case. [:

Okay, thats all for today, I still have work to do.

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Another Q&A

Okay. Here is what you have to do

1. Highlight the whole quiz.
2. Copy and paste into your post.
3. Change all the answers so that they apply to you.


/READ IT ALL!!!OR ELSE.../
1. Starting Time: 2049
2. Full Name: Yeechien Cheot
3. Best Friend(s): Xinmin, Laura, Jacky, Faheem, and a few.
4. Sexiest Friend: Myself hehehe
5. Funniest Friend(s): Don't know
6. Smartest Friends: Yifeng.
7. Dumbest Person: DUNO
8. Shyest Friend: Jacky? Hahaha
9. Most Boring Person: Nope
11. Height: 175
12.D(ate)O(f)B(irth): 28th Feb 1990
13.Righty/Lefty: BOTH
14. IQ level (10 to be highest): level 7
15. Shoe Size: 12
16. Shoe Brand: Depends
17. Do you crack any body parts: Back?
18. Favourite members in your household: Everyone
19. Sibling(s): Sister.
20. Email Address: LOL
21. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Boyfriend !! -.- no la, im single
22. Crush: On what
23. Liked a teacher: Nah.

55. Eastern or western: FUSION!
56. Vanilla or chocolate: Vanilla
57. Cake or Cookies: Both
58. Purple striped Lime socks or white socks: White cause I could dye them.
59. Sunset or Sunrise: Moonrise?:
60. Day or Night: Neither
61. Lights on or off : A little bit of light
62. Summer or Winter: Winter

YOUR FAV...
63. Food: Edible Stuff
64. Holiday destination: Paris!
65. Radio Station:International FM
66. Place: wherever i feel comfortable in

In The Future
67. Will you believe in God: yes. something spiritual will help in my
development.
68. What you want to be when you grow up: See lor. Entrepreneur?
69. Define Love:Not defined
70. Favourite Place: Cafe with Jazz
71. Favourite day(s) of the week: Everyday
72. Who Is Least Likely To Send This Back: N/A
73.Satan or God or atheist: GOD

More questions
74. Do you love someone right now: Almost everyone
75. Do you care about someone: Yes
76. Do you think of someone everyday: Yes
77. Do you think someone is special in any way: Yes
78. Finishing time: 2058
79. Date: 050906

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Blog.

Journaling, Blogging.

A place to keep our thoughts, and feelings.

Many times I find myself saying things out of goodwill and get slammed. I'm not directly slammed, but I know people hate me for that. It's sad, it's happening to me. Heaves a big sigh. This year I have been sighing more than I did for the last 15 years, just a fun fact =/.

Rather lonely out here.

People are not in sync with their sermons. What they speak are merely cheap talk, action is never really shown. These are the people who claim the credit after a hard day's work. I go wtf. Really. I'm not directing the comment at anyone, its not an assault. I'm making it clear, not because I'm guilty, but people out there are guilty of always pointing the finger at the WRONG SUSPECT.

Don't try too hard changing people. Change yourself. You don't need to look at their expressions to live. Others' behaviour will affect you, just try to ignore. Being ignorant is good sometimes. Sometimes we must give others some freedom. If not we always get accused.

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Silent Night 2

Again the night is silent. Today its more quiet.

These days are harder to pass with so many things to do. Schoolwork, Prom, and other stuff. Days aren't the same. As major events get closer, its harder to breathe. Just like scaling Mount Everest, what a metaphor.

Reality gets under your skin and into your nerves sometimes, then you feel like, the next person who'd irritate you be the detonator, and you explode. Roar. That was for everything I've been through man. Which sucked.

Life's always like this, isn't it.

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Silent Night (It's Not Even Christmas)

The night so slient, that the sound of a pin drop can be heard. Sigh. What a night.

Tonight, I have done quite a few Prom assignments. I wonder where the rest are, hmm... Still, more are to come, and I wonder how the days with more assignments will be like. A taste of the world. And O levels.

Right.

Still undone,
1. Proposal for RTC
2. Proposal for Events
3. Proposal for Audition
4. Collection of Money
5. Soliciting of Sponsors
6. Counting of money
7. And more.

So much right. Haha. Yup.

Many times I find life kinda lonely, there's not much people to speak to, it isn't what it looks like. We travel alone as the road gets more narrow, and harder to walk. Sometimes, people from below tend to speak too much. Where have they been to? Nowhere, and yet they speak as if they're the pro. Yet again.

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