-Monday, December 18, 2006
Life; and a little bit more to it.
Reading Daniel's blog gave me some encouragment. At least I'm not in the predicament alone, there was someone who have been through it. Holidays without anything to look forward to are like hell. My routine's like, eat sleep computer. Yeah, and maybe half an hour or so walking up and down my house. I get tired then I go to sleep.
I need a job soon. But I need a job that does not only pays, but allows me to learn something from it. Everyone's(almost), getting a job to fuel their spending and all. Have they ever thought what they could get from the job apart from the cold hard cash? Hardly, I bet. Money is like the master of all these teenage souls who aren't going to JC for the first few months yet. I don't deny the fact that money is important, but is it that important? Who knows.
I'm not the kind who'll just settle for the kind of $5/hr jobs that I believe I will gain nothing out of it. Just that. I need a job that is in my interest and all. Okay I'm not a pro at this kind of thing so I should just shut up for now till I get one.
Life's kinda about politics. Isn't it?
People dislike you for the most asburd reasons, those kinds a kindergarten children can generate. Well, it affects you inevitably, but fuck, who's going to give a damn after some time? Again, insolent fools.
Well, I'll take a break here as I cope with changes in my life, or maybe not.
Yeechien Wrote;
6:08 PM
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-Saturday, December 16, 2006
Yet so near; yet so far.
Now's a time for me to learn independence. With nothing much to do already, I almost went bonkers walking here and there everyday. If not my eyes would be transfixed onto the computer screen, staring at blank spaces, and while doing so, I fall deeper and deeper into my own world of thoughts.
More and more emotion run into me as I am dreaming, or rather thinking. Sometimes I think that it didn't have to turn out this way for me. But yet choosing to give up, will be the stupidest choice I will make, and I will live to regret. Things become different, yeah maybe I should use a pair of new eyes to look at some things, and make some decisions. They may not be easy, but I'll have to try.
The feeling is like, its right in front of you, yet when you reach out to get it, its gone. You are only living in a world of illusion. I need to get out asap. Sounds like I'm like suffering from autism, LOL but I'm not. Just kinda feeling very moody. Guess my 1st Period is coming =X hahah.
What a weird feeling.
I guess it didn't have to turn out this way, and I hope things will change, but I will lay here paitently. Sometimes it so difficult to open my mouth and ask, sometimes its so difficult to reach out my hand and give you a pat on the back. So much to consider, so much to worry about, but yet I'll try my best, cause once I lose it, I'll never be able to get it back. It's something that occurs once in a lifetime. I feel that it's kind of a waste, but yet I must respect you. No matter your decision, I'll stick to it. But when I see you falling in, I'll pick you up. Well. At least I know that, no matter the distance, there's a kind of connection. It comforts me to hear that. Well, as you learn to make decisions and open up your heart, I'll be around to give a helping hand. [:
Yeechien Wrote;
12:03 PM
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-Friday, December 08, 2006
The People Who Made The Difference;
These are the people who dared to step up; and make a difference.
They are also the ones who stood by me.
Thank you.
Me and Xinmin; Vice-chairman, Buddy.
Me, Xinmin, Laura my PA/Nanny/Counselor, Jacky my best dude. [[:
Me and Jacky, 4 years.
Me and My commitee. Tammie the Bigger Nanny.
Okay.
Yeechien Wrote;
1:58 PM
1:58 PM
IF only.
Time really flies. 4 years of education, or rather more fun, ended just in a blink. Looking back, yes I had many friends, but how many were really always there for me. How'd I wish I had more time to spend with these people. It's like that isn't it? You wish you had more when you are going to have less. In other words, you took your friends for granted when they were there, now that they're going, you wished you had more of them.
Well, it's life isn't it. We part, we meet again. But in the end it's always up to us if we want to meet again. It's whether we pick up the phone and overcome whatever embarassment there is after so many years, since we dont talk to each other already. It's that little step for us to meet again, it's just words, why does it look so difficult.
The touching words my friends said to me, was worth. Ok if I carry on, I'm going to flood this place with tears. Lol.
This post was meant for my close friends. Two simple words, sometimes hard to say, but yeah.
Love You,
Yeechien
Yeechien Wrote;
1:37 PM
1:37 PM
-Wednesday, December 06, 2006
The End of A Chapter; The Beginning of Another
The Prom, officially ended.
As it was ending, I was in a blur. Then, it ended just like that. I was too engrossed in making it go that I forgot to indulge in the moment. However, some moments were worth savouring. The moments when I felt appreciated, the moments when I thanked my committee members.
All the effort put it, was shown on that night.
As I went through that night, I remembered everything from the beginning. The times when I worked late into the night alone, the times when people gave me the odd look. It wasn't easy, having to sacrifice my recesses, more of my time to get this going. But look, it paid off. I never regretted stepping into that room where the Prom Night's fate was decided, together with Xinmin. I knew when I stepped in, things were going to change for me. I will have a new aim to reach, and I told myself, 'I will do it.' At the beginning everything went smoothly. No worries, no nothing. Then came all the difficulties, people not paying on time, more work undone, people threatening the existence of the event... To be frank, I felt like giving up, but I didn't due to the fact that the thought all of the people who signed up pushed me on. I felt discouraged, but I stood up. I bumped into obstacles over and over again, but I went around them.
I was very very tired to carry on. Here my committee had their own problems to face. I was left alone. I work very very hard to make it possible, but I thought, what am I doing? Finally, I remembered something. Success only comes to the people who hold on after sometime.
I have too much to say, really. But I'd like to thank everyone of you for coming and showing your enthusiastic support for this event. And these 4 people who have made a big difference in my life.
Tammie - Events Management
Without you/Jacky = no events. Especially the pageant, you were the one who made it professional. Seriously, alot of people said that you were a solo worker. I had no comment, but you have proven them wrong, and they dont see the Tammie I see - an organised planner, a practical person, and many more. All the transportation of the equipments, you helped me settled it in the blink of an eye. I hope that being in this part of a project had made you a better person with more experiences.
Jacky - Events Management & Logistics
Also my 'brother'. As above, no you = no events. Thanks for covering all the aspects when I needed you to, though sometimes at the expense of your r/s with other people. Thanks alot. Thanks for hearing me out when I needed you to. Your enthusiasm to this project definitely spurs everyone on. Although you were abit hot, I knew that you could do it. The encouragement you gave in the more fierce form was somehow helpful.
Laura - Logistics & Public Relations
Basically, you were kinda like my P.A/Nanny/Queen/Your Highness. You were the one who corrected me when I made mistakes, you were the first to point me out when I make mistakes. You were also the one who have been there for me when I felt lonely, talking to you always gives me new insights and makes me more paitent. Though youre standards are quite high, you're a crazy person inside. But yet you always make me feel like youre a mother looking over us. Your laughter brightens up everyones day. You should be the advisor instead.
Xinmin - Vice-Chairman
My buddy. Among all in the committee, I worry the most for you. Though you play me out sometimes due to certain reasons, bear in mind that I may be angry, but when I find out the reason why I don't really bear grudges against you. You have proven yourself to be a highly committed member, as like everyone else. Be stronger and make wiser decisions; it will be important for you. You were the one who started this with me, I hope you remember that too.
Lastly, 4 of you were the ones who made me feel different. When I was looking out for comm members, I looked for the 4 of you. But people started talking about you all. Jacky being hot-headed, Tammie and Laura being soloists, and Xinmin being quite stubborn. I never believed them, I just listened. Together 4 of you have proven your critics wrong. Claim credit for the night. Admit it, without the 4 of you there would not have been an almost flawless prom night. Thank you very much. Again, don't forget the 4 of you, to me, are the most influential people in the cohort, your names are known up and down the 4 floors of NAS. You all have done me proud that night, and simple gifts and words are not enough to thank you all. Sorry if I sound like a naggy ah pek, but I hope the 5 of us can work again soon. I think we make a great team.
I love you all.
Yeechien Wrote;
11:51 AM
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