-Wednesday, May 30, 2007
What's this?
What is this?
What's this feeling? The other day I was walking happily after I bought some chocolates from Royce @ Suntec City. I was looking for a place to sit down and eat. Somehow, I wasn't really decisive. I kept walking around and around. I don't like crowded places. I don't like to squeeze. Finally when I found a place at pacific coffee, I settled down. Then a thought came to my mind. "What am I doing here, alone?"
Here, as in both that location, and right here. Here = right here in this world. "What's the purpose?" I thought. What am I living for, myself? Maybe not. Socialising seems to be a word that is kinda distant. I might have forgotten how to actually know others better. How come I see it in this way - cliques, cliques, groups, groups. Individuals are left out. Or did they choose not to join in?
How come I feel like one of the individuals? How come I feel so, alone? I don't know why. Hopefully this is just a passing phase of my growing years. And I thought I stopped growing. I just acknowledge comments with a faint smile, or a nod. The constant ramblings about life, everything. I don't feel alot of emotions, maybe just happy and sad. All I know is to follow my dreams, what I wanna do. But in the process, what will I lose?
I live by this principle - Others before self. There is nothing that is fully to your advantage. You pay a price. It may be good to consider others' well being before our own, but at the same time we must not forget who we are. Maybe, to put it simply, there should be a balance, in everything.
Where do we find that balance?
The search goes on.
"If you can imagine it, you can achieve it.
If you can dream it, you can become it. "
William Ward
Yeechien Wrote;
8:35 PM
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