-Saturday, December 16, 2006
Yet so near; yet so far.
Now's a time for me to learn independence. With nothing much to do already, I almost went bonkers walking here and there everyday. If not my eyes would be transfixed onto the computer screen, staring at blank spaces, and while doing so, I fall deeper and deeper into my own world of thoughts.
More and more emotion run into me as I am dreaming, or rather thinking. Sometimes I think that it didn't have to turn out this way for me. But yet choosing to give up, will be the stupidest choice I will make, and I will live to regret. Things become different, yeah maybe I should use a pair of new eyes to look at some things, and make some decisions. They may not be easy, but I'll have to try.
The feeling is like, its right in front of you, yet when you reach out to get it, its gone. You are only living in a world of illusion. I need to get out asap. Sounds like I'm like suffering from autism, LOL but I'm not. Just kinda feeling very moody. Guess my 1st Period is coming =X hahah.
What a weird feeling.
I guess it didn't have to turn out this way, and I hope things will change, but I will lay here paitently. Sometimes it so difficult to open my mouth and ask, sometimes its so difficult to reach out my hand and give you a pat on the back. So much to consider, so much to worry about, but yet I'll try my best, cause once I lose it, I'll never be able to get it back. It's something that occurs once in a lifetime. I feel that it's kind of a waste, but yet I must respect you. No matter your decision, I'll stick to it. But when I see you falling in, I'll pick you up. Well. At least I know that, no matter the distance, there's a kind of connection. It comforts me to hear that. Well, as you learn to make decisions and open up your heart, I'll be around to give a helping hand. [:
Yeechien Wrote;
12:03 PM
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