-Saturday, September 30, 2006
Once Again.
Before anything else,
I sincerely apologise to anyone and everyone if the posts in the previous entries have caused hurt to anyone else. It wasnt the motive, that was the important part. I know who I am directing to. And this apology is directed to those who have been hurt in a way or another. I am taking full responsibility for my actions.
Yeechien
Once again I emphasise my APOLOGY. I know some things are hurting. And I clapped because I gave honour, not because of sarcasm. My blog may differ from what I put in action. My class chairman and Vice chairman taught me and important lesson. How much you dont like something, dont be a wet blanket.
I admit I was very much against the dance, after seeing so many people not involving, and me myself not involving as I don't see any point in doing that dance. But Faheem and Yifeng constantly asked me to take part, but I refused. Sorry guys. I admit I hurt people. I said stuff w/o considering the effort they put, right? But in the first place if it wasn't last minute all these unwanted stuff wouldn't appear.
Judging by the tags on my board, I know that really people are there by my side. It's weird to go around people stuff if you yourself aren't guilty. Always be sure, and don't be a busybody to ask everyone this and that and redundant stuff. With all this texts I constantly remind myself what life is like. I get all this shit too.
Being accused of things that I never done. Just to clarify, I go to every, note. E-V-E-R-Y unfilled table to chase them to fill it up. I do my job with much vigour, and I am willing so sacrifice my food time, which is important to me, but this prom has a higher calling than my food time. Don't shoot the arrow when you're not looking at the target. Yeah I know this has got to do with some interpersonal stuff. For everyone's info, I gave a choice because I thought that it was everyone's prom night and I wanted everyone to remember it. I'd rather put myself in a spot than see people unhappy. But what I get? More problems. The fact that I'm whining now, shows how important this project is to me.
Its not that I dont wanna give you a job to do. Please understand that when I gave you jobs, you once told me you had not enough time to do this and that. Seeing you in a exhausted state with your eyebags filled to the brim, as a result of sleeplessness, I couldn't help but not to give you anymore. I know you have commitments to juggle. So do I. I don't like to spend my every day and night wasting my breath explaining that this prom night is not affecting my studies to my parents. And having to tolerate their nagging out of concern every now and then. But for everyone's sake and mine, I am learning to weigh both. I don't like to see unhappy faces while working. I know working it out alone isn't easy. When you said that I used that as an excuse, it wasnt. And it hurt okay. It wasn't an excuse. The bottom line is that I care, for each and everyone of my comm members. I look out for you all, all the time. When teachers speak to me, I worry for you all. The past months have not been easy for me, luckily for me my prelims were still okay, I scraped thru with L1R5 - 25.
So whatever people label me, I'll just make do. For now I'd really like to settle everything and put it behind. Whether or not there are hard feelings. Now its time for the future and the Os.
Its not that I want to pursue anything or what lah. I felt that injustice has been done to me all the while, and I need to let out. I can tell you the truth, or you can ask others. I am usually very paitent. Now my limit is almost there, I know, I am trying to raise it. For my patience and tolerance, I will. Please tell me right in the face if you are downright unhappy. I don't like to hear from others, and it inconvenient for others to pass me the message too. I am frank and to the point.
For anyone else's information. The prom is going on and it will be a much anticipated event as most of the details are really finalised. Please support. Everything I said has a drop of conscience in it. On the right you can see what I've said might be true with my classmates coming to give me words of encouragement and such. Thanks to WEIQING especially. My friend of 9plus years. Thanks beanpole. And the others, yeah.
Yeechien Wrote;
9:18 PM
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