-Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Okay, Im back.
What a slow day, today. Spent most of my time, thinking about stuff. So much up in my head, about almost everything under the sun. I think I'm in a phase of my life, where I'm searching for answers desperately, and when I find them, I see things in different light. It seems to me, I'm singing to a different tune from everyone. I can't see eye to eye with people, seriously.
I'm very very exhausted mentally. Very. I'm very sick of seeing the same faces which give me problems everyday. I'd like to escape from this world for awhile. Just a little while, where I can slow down and find myself, and find answers that I really always wanted, on life. Sometimes, one might say, escaping is not the best solution, but... I think things are taking its toll on me, the envrionment, the work I have, and such. Nowadays, I always find myself heaving a big sigh, once in a moment. Days aren't good for me, but always, there is light at the end of the tunnel, isn't there? My emotional state is kinda weak now, I don't know. Thinking of alot of things.
Sick today, feeling very uneasy. Bedridden for around 14 hours. Well, while I was in bed, I broke into cold sweat, and started hallucinating. I thought about the bad things that would happen, seriously, I was really afraid that it would.
People dont tend to think in the same way. Which sucks sometimes. They intrepret a piece of info wrongly, and the gossip starts. Gossip, like a flame. Man, like fuel. Without man, gossips will die out someday, without the fuel to keep it going. Well, this is life, reality. Isn't it?
Doing this prom, is not a small job, yet to others it may seem like a game, with fun and all this. But, I don't see it as a kind of fun, but rather a commitment to bring the students what they want, in other words, answering to their calls. Well, not to worry, since I've already chosen to do it, I'll do it to the best that it can be.
Yeechien Wrote;
9:25 PM
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