-Sunday, August 27, 2006
Hi SUMO
To be responsive, instead of reactive. Well then. I shall learn that.
I am growing up. In fact, for the last 8 months, after taking up the Prom Project, I feel that I've grown, not physically, but mentally, and emotionally. Life is never easy, but I think I have at least tried my best, and given my best most of the time, and I hardly whine and complain. I've learnt that, power is not given to you for your own advantages, neither for you to flaunt, nor for you to abuse. It is rather, for your job to be done, even if it means silently. A tree, like an organisation, needs to be pruned regularly. The unwanted parts should be removed, so it does not become an obstacle for growth, and then, reaping the fruits.
It's time for me to S.U.M.O ( Shut Up and Move On). Its time for me to try to ignore all the noises in life. Its time for me to brave through the obstacles of life, the choppy waves, and how unpredictable the journey can get. I'll be like a rock, hard to break with my vaules held tightly within. I'll try my very best, to ignore what I can, regardless of what people speak of me, they usually speak ill, thats how people behave. The tongue is made not for us to hurt, rather it its made for the use to do good. Relationships, any kind, are like 2 logs burning at each end, close enough to light each other up, yet far apart enough for space to breathe. Understand? Sigh. In this phase, I'm rather feeling emotionally unstable? I don't know. I had enough of what people are saying, not about me, but just what comes out from their mouths. A coin has two sides, but usually we see the negative side, don't we. Maybe I should try to see the positive side. Well maybe I think the postive side has become extinct(?) It hardly exists. Or never. Slowly it fades, and people lose themselves to influence. Its not that we cant see both sides a coin, but whether a coin wants us to see the other side of them, really. Until then, we only can base our perceptions on a single side. It's really time for me to leave everything behind, and move to a new stage of life, where I can find myself.
Also, words of encouragment for people out there. The higher you climb, the thinner the air becomes. People who give up are left behind. Never look back, for the view at the top, is much more worthy of your sight.
All along, my perspectives were kinda restricted, like being contained within a well, only to see what the sky is like from the well. I have since then moved out of the well, and I'm trying to scale greater heights so that I can see things better. I want the inscription on my tombstone to say, here lies a man who never stopped asking for more, and more. [: Now that I moved up a stage, I hope that I can help those who havent. But if they are unwilling, all I can do is just sit around and watch. So many thoughts within, but rather hard to pen it down in black and white.
Yeechien Wrote;
8:23 PM
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